"INSPIRING, MOVING, AND PROVOCATIVE, THIS FILM IS A MASTERFUL EXPOSE OF FEMININE SEXUALITY IN ALL HER TENDER STRENGTH, RAW WOUNDING, AND ULTIMATE TRIUMPH IN SELF-LOVE.
EVA CLAY, LCSW, CLINICAL SEXOLOGIST AND PSYCHOTHERAPIST
“THIS FILM HOLDS A TRANSMISSION OF HEALING.”
Dr. Kristina Kincaid, Co-Author of RETURN TO EROS
A HOLY EROTICA FILM STUDY | SELF-PLEASURE
FILM STUDY: FEMININE SELF-PLEASURE CHARACTER STUDY: LILLIE CLAIRE LOVE
THEMES: Trauma, Christian Mysticism
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This lecture is in-part a prequel to Part 1, investigating a spiritual experience known as transreverberation, being ravished by the Holy Spirit, or a Kundalini Awakening. I investigate Dr. Kristina Kincaid, a former Victoria Secret’s model turned anthropologist, theologian, and healer and her documented account of her own kundalini awakening. This leads me into Christian Mysticism and the introduction to Isis Initiation and the Mary Magdalene thread. This matriarchal perspective investigate the feminine in the holy trinity and is paralleled with a second Holy Erotica experiment — an investigation into self-pleasure.
Healing Arc: Trancendence, following the body and emotion.
“HOLY”, 2nd Definition: To be pure and elevated.
Archetype: Mary (New Testament)
Symbology/Numerology: Double-Helix (Double Triangle) / 7
2nd Belief of Holy Erotica: If Sexuality and Spirituality are synonym, both expand.
Gallery Artifacts: (exclusive for the COHE)
Masculine/Feminine Self-Pleasure
Sexuality as healing
Dr. Kristina Kincaid Raw Interview
COSMIC TOUCH
LECTURE | TRANSCENDENCE
NAVIGATE DOWN TO:
The HYPOTHESIS of the film study.
The teaser/trailer for Cosmic Touch.
Summary of the film study subject(s).
Viewing portal of the film study.
Aftercare: Free discussion guide, audio recording, Cosmic Touched
Film study revelations and conclusions highlighted yellow.
HYPOTHESIS: What are the true heights and depths of feminine self-pleasure? Is it limited to orgasm?
COSMIC TOUCH explores a woman confronting the shame of being witnessed while embracing her self-pleasure.
Mainstream media often ties feminine self-pleasure to male-centric narratives—like mind-blowing orgasms designed for male pleasure. Cosmic Touch disrupts this.
In this film, there was no direction, no set goal, and no payment. It was a spontaneous gathering of curious co-creators, exploring the unknown together. What unfolded was cosmic.
My conclusion: There is far more to masturbation than what I’ve been taught by pornography, the church, or mainstream media. This led to my SECOND BELIEF— If sexuality and spirituality are synonymous, both realms expand, opening a gateway to a larger mystery.
Nevada City, CA | The Yuba River
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This is where you read my INTROSPECTION of each artifact. The study summary sets the frame, tells the story, and gives introspection. It uncovers the filmmaker and subject’s journey, exploring relational and cultural dynamics, and highlight embodied experiences while maintaining ethical integrity. The summary also invites the possibility of a Higher Intelligence at play in eroticism.
See the evolution compass below.
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Connection to Content
What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)
Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)
What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)
Connection to Self/Divine
As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)
What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)
What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)
LILLIE LOVE | THE SUBJECT
After completing Just For One Day, I began my next film study: Feminine Self-Pleasure.
This time, I didn’t want to work with another adult film actress entrenched in the world of pornography. Instead, I delved into social media, researching feminine embodiment coaches, and stumbled upon another “Lillie.” Was I following a thread?
Lillie Love was an actress and filmmaker who had once navigated the fringes of erotic spaces. But she’d left that dual existence behind, seeking a life that felt more authentic, healthier, and “in the Light.” When I found her, she was working as a somatic practitioner, guiding women in reclaiming their bodies. She reminded me of my first film subject—familiar, yet distinctly different.
At first, I resisted her commercialized “attractiveness” and searched for other subjects. But no one resonated in quite the same way. My camera—and perhaps my own unexamined shame—kept circling back to her. Eventually, I decided to pick up the thread again.
When we met, I discovered that Lillie had already envisioned creating a self-pleasure film, even before I’d reached out. She was, unmistakably, my next subject.
Nevada City, CA | The filming space of Cosmic Touch
"We created this film from a pure intention that other women (and men) will receive a permission slip to release shame and reclaim the human right to pleasure, sacredness, and deep intimacy with Self.”
LILLIAN CLAIRE LOVE - Featured, Producer
“For this film, I had to abandon all my tricks of the filmmaking trade and follow something different — MY AROUSAL — which veered me off the path of convention and into the unknown. My understanding of masturbation has irrevocably changed since COSMIC TOUCH, and I hope you feel it in this film.”
NATHANAEL L. NOVERO - Director, Producer
COSMIC TOUCH was produced in collaboration with Cassandra Smolcic, who joined the filmmaking team to bring her invaluable feminine perspective. Together, we expanded on the initial edit, blending our unique strengths and creative visions. This partnership was key to shaping the film into its final form, leading to its recognition as an award-winning work and earning the endorsement of AASECT.
THE FILMMAKING TEAM
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A former Southern Baptist church camp pastor who preached abstinence and purity, Nathanael is now a docu-series producer & editor who’s racked up credits with Netflix, Discovery, History Channel and National Geographic.
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A free-spirited, tender-hearted heroin with her own larger-than-life-story, Lillie’s experience as a model, actress, educator, life coach and healer give her a dynamic and powerful presence in her on-screen roles as intuitive nurturer, maternal tantric teacher and sensual-spirituality guide.
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Multi-talented artist, writer, designer, and a #MeToo bell-ringer, and a sex abuse survivor herself. She contributed to some of the editing and filming and coined the term “docu-therapy” featured at the beginning of the film.
COSMIC TOUCH
FILM STILLS + PRODUCTION STILLS
FREE SCREENING | DISCUSSION GUIDE
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This is where you read my INTROSPECTION of each artifact. The study summary sets the frame, tells the story, and gives introspection. It uncovers the filmmaker and subject’s journey, exploring relational and cultural dynamics, and highlight embodied experiences while maintaining ethical integrity. The summary also invites the possibility of a Higher Intelligence at play in eroticism.
See the evolution compass below.
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Connection to Content
What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)
Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)
What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)
Connection to Self/Divine
As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)
What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)
What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)
AFTERCARE |
DISCUSSION GUIDE |
The post-screening discussion is where true healing begins. When viewers share their experiences, the conversation opens up new possibilities for exploring self-pleasure—beyond the confines of the male gaze and free from shame. To support this transformative dialogue, we offer a FREE DISCUSSION GUIDE, designed to help you host your own group-viewing experience.
Cosmic Touch | The spiral is one of the many fractal images throughout Holy Erotica films.
POST-SCREENING RESPONSES |
LISTEN to the VERY FIRST POST-SCREENING DISCUSSION of COSMIC TOUCH recorded after a men’s retreat in Santa Cruz, California. An audio is available HERE. Watch the film and listen to these responses to get a COMPLETE HEALING TRANSMISSION.
COSMIC TOUCHED | RESPONSE FILM
I set out to evaluate COSMIC TOUCH and its ability to connect with women. To do this, I interviewed a friend in Belgium who recently viewed the film.
I then filmed Lillie’s reaction to the interview, capturing a palpable connection between the two. COSMIC TOUCHED revealed the medium’s emotional power and taught me the value of response videos as a tool for reflection, especially when group discussions aren’t possible.
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This is where you read my INTROSPECTION of each artifact. The study summary sets the frame, tells the story, and gives introspection. It uncovers the filmmaker and subject’s journey, exploring relational and cultural dynamics, and highlight embodied experiences while maintaining ethical integrity. The summary also invites the possibility of a Higher Intelligence at play in eroticism.
See the evolution compass below.
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Connection to Content
What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)
Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)
What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)
Connection to Self/Divine
As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)
What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)
What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)