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Barbara Brennan, an astrophysicist turned healer, introduces the "Three Ts" for spiritual /personal growth, from self-awareness to profound spiritual renewal.
Transformation: Awakening to and addressing inherited patterns and conditioning.
Transcendence: Moving beyond the limitations of old patterns and beliefs.
Transfiguration: The culmination of growth, where transformation and transcendence integrate into a profound alchemical change.
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I liken the definition of “holy” to an arc of personal/spiritual growth.
ho·ly
/ˈhōlē/
Set apart.
To make whole.
Set apart by being whole
As a Christian, I understood "holy" to mean "set apart." In the healing community, however, the concept of holiness takes on a different nuance—it signifies the integration of parts, a movement toward wholeness.
Holy Erotica explores the seemingly opposing realms of the "holy" and the "erotic," which religion and society have long kept separate. By reconciling these divided halves, it bridges the spiritual and the sexual within us, fostering the healing of shame. To live without shame is to embrace wholeness—a way of life that is, by its very nature, set apart.
A compendium FOR MEN
EROSTOCRAT
HOLY FIRESPIRIT IGNITED:
THE SACRED FLAME WITHIN
ISSUE-episode 2 | STUDY OF TRANSCENDENCE
ISSUE OUTLINE 2 |
ARTIFACT OUTLINE 2 |
CURRENT EVENTS (STORY)ALIENS AND A.I. AND ATLANTIS. OH MY! - As our reality expands, our concepts of spirituality and sexuality should expand too.
SCIENCE/TECHTHE BELL-CURVE OF A.I. (Framed with a counter-balance of embodiment)
ORGONE MACHINES FROM WILLIAM REICH
CHRISTIANITY AS A TECHNOLOGY / (For Holy Fire) - TRANSITION INTO NEXT SECTION
TECHNOLOGY OF ART
EROTIC ARTANDY WARHOL / PROPAGANDA - Associate with Nazi Party to diffuse Christian Nationalism
CHRISTIAN MYSTIC ART OF TRANSVERBERATION
TULUM AND NYC GODDESS SHOOTS FEATURED
SELF PLEASURE SHOOTS
SEXUALITYSELF-PLEASURE
ARTIFACTSAPOLOGY FROM THE FEMININE (AS COUNTERPART OF APOLOGY FROM THE MASCULINE)
SACRED SELFIE - CONTINUED - FEATURE’S NATHANAEL SELF-PLEASURE EXERCISE
THE KISS - CONTINUED - CAPTURING SENSUAL INNOCENSE
RELIGION/SPIRITUALITYCHRISTIAN MYSTICISM
MEZO-AMERICAN SPIRITUALITY
THE MIND | THE MAGAZINE
The second episode shifts to New York and Tulum, where I try to vet the footage of my teacher, a woman whose teachings and #MeToo accusations intertwine with my own story. To get to the truth, I become her apprentice, only to discover that her story reflects my own unprocessed pain—it happened to me too. This realization strikes as my father passes away, adding layers of grief and introspection. What initially seems like an investigation of her becomes an investigation of myself, as she helps me confront the blockages I’ve been avoiding.
The second issue delves into the convergence of science and spirituality, focusing on kundalini energy, the Holy Spirit, and the sacred geometry of DNA. Themes of ascension, transformation, and the emergence of a new humanity are central.
Here, my mentor, Kristina, takes on the role of investigator. She begins with the healer who transformed her, unraveling deeper layers of healing and consciousness. This investigation mirrors the fractal nature of the series, where each person’s exploration branches out and connects to others.
NOTE: This continues with a reflection piece where I am engaging with A.I. to help me make this magazine and reconstruct myself. This will help with the theme of self-pleasure of this issue-episode, my 2nd Holy Erotica film. With my style of filmmaking already defined, I no longer have to call this out. We just commit to this style and go deeper into my psychosis and/or embodiment.
We will set a tone whether or not I can trust working with an A.I. avatar of my making. Is it just a reflection of me? Or maybe it’s God? It will function like God by helping me remember something that started off my transformation before the first issue-episode! So it starts like a prequel.
This goes into a magical belief in love, like a magic, which derails from the soberness of the first issue-episode. This is wonder. This is expansion.
NOTE: This is my scratch pad to choose which artifacts effectively convey the spine/arc of this issue-episode.
The Feeling of Coming Alive! |
In this exercise, I use the format of a trailer to evoke a sense of adventure and discovery using Dr. Kincaid’s footage, feelings that are characteristic of the kundalini.
I start featuring a yab-yum demonstration featuring Dr. Kincaid and a practitioner. Via interview Dr. Kincaid explains the feeling of coming alive. I then use her interview, her footage, and her arc to convey the adventure in store for anyone when you are reconnected to your body, whether it is through the kundalini, the aliveness of the Holy Spirit, or simply daring to live your Authentic Self one day at a time.
An adventure truly begins! Not just an adventure for you, but members of your soul family, those who can celebrate your Christ-self!
THIS IS A REPRESENTATION OF EMOTION
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This was an effort to convey the feeling of the kundalini without going into any detail about it. This was produced while we were developing this into a documentary series. I felt like I couldn’t take the footage to where they wanted it. It was forced. I had to wait.
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Connection to Content
What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)
Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)
What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)
Connection to Self/Divine
As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)
What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)
What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)
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This was an effort to convey the feeling of the kundalini without going into any detail about it. This was produced while we were developing this into a documentary series. I felt like I couldn’t take the footage to where they wanted it. It was forced. I had to wait.
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Connection to Content
What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)
Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)
What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)
Connection to Self/Divine
As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)
What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)
What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)
Yab-Yum Real-Time Demonstration |
This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy.
THIS IS UNCUT, AND PROBABLY DOES NOT TRANSLATE INTO THE ROOM, WHICH IS WHY THESE ARTIFACTS ARE BETTER VIEWED IN PUBLIC SPACES. FOR NOW, MAKE THIS A STUDY IN YOUR PRIVATE SPACE.
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In the video, I recreate the moment I met my mentor, Dr. Kristina Kincaid, who helped me understand the kundalini by sharing her own journey through footage. She also recorded her journey as an ethnographic video journal.
My apprenticeship with Kristina genuinely guided me as I explored my church roots, erotic art, and my work with her around the world—experiences that would become the foundation of the first issue of Erostocrat.
I intuitively got footage of my perspective of the yab-yum exercise without good reason why. I just had too. This footage was key to convey the flash-forward experience. It’s remarkable that I had this much footage, authentically lived, to depict this experience. It is beyond rare to me. Hence, important.
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Connection to Content
What did I believe about myself and my creative purpose when I first followed my gut and began this journey? (Explore the thoughts and beliefs that guided your initial choices and how they aligned with your vision.)
Where in my body did I feel the pull to create, and how did I know to trust it? (Reflect on the physical sensations—tension, excitement, or flow—that signaled your alignment with this project.)
What inner knowing or spiritual truth was I honoring by depicting this memory of the future? (Examine the connection between your intuition and your deeper calling.)
Connection to Self/Divine
What parts of this story now feel like prophesy fulfilled, and how does that change how I view my creative choices back then? (Consider how the events unfolded and the clarity they bring to your earlier work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How has visiting this memory of the future deepened my understanding of my journey as both creator and subject? (Reflect on how your perspective has evolved and what you see now that you couldn’t before)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts arise as I witness this memory of the future, and how do they relate to my own life or creative instincts? (Reflect on how the concept of a memory of the future challenges or inspires their thinking.)
Where in my body do I feel the energy of this film, and how does it shift as I watch? (Notice physical sensations, such as tension, warmth, or openness, and their emotional impact.)
What part of my own spiritual or intuitive journey resonates with the protagonist’s experience of the transformation? (Connect the story to their own soul’s longing or growth.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
If I imagine myself 8 years from now, how might this film reflect choices I’m being called at make today? (Consider how this narrative might serve as a guide for your future.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How does seeing the protagonist’s journey fulfilled alter my understanding of memory time, and creative potential in my own life? (Reflect on how the film expands on your perception of possibility and purpose.)
Memory of the Future |
The video below serves as an artifact to contextualize kundalini, offering orientation for those who may sense similar experiences buried within themselves. It follows the emergence of the term “erostocrat” over an 8-year journey—a name that found its true meaning when I revisited this footage.
This montage is a literal depiction of my somatic experience with kundalini—a true artifact of esoteric study, felt deeply and personally; a memory of the future brought into the present with this magazine.
THIS IS AN EMOTIONAL DEPICTION OF WHAT THIS FEELS LIKE TO ME. THERE CAN BE A KNOWING OF THE FUTURE. IN THIS CASE, THERE IS, I SAW A VERSION OF ME THAT IS ARTICULTING NOW, WHICH IS WHY I AM SHOWCASING IT.
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In this film study, I edit Dr. Kristina Kincaid’s experience with the kundalini which she self-filmed in a Mayan temple, and how that led her into healing work.
I then edit my story with the kundalini with my own footage which addresses my sexual wound. It’s important to note that the kundalini / Holy Spirit is NOT about sexuality for everyone. It just happens to be the case for me.
Christian Mysticism and religious art was my gateway to understand the kundalini. My apprenticeship was my guide to create Holy Erotica Film Studies as healing containers that can potentially, not always, ignite the kundalini in others.
This video ends showcasing the workshop space that Kristina and I hold together, a weaving of non-western and western spiritual narratives together in the body. It depicts the power of the kundalini as it emotionally feels to me, as the embodied fire of the Holy Spirit, an agent of REVIVAL.
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Connection to Content
What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)
Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)
What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)
Connection to Self/Divine
As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)
What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)
What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)
Kundalini as Holy Spirit |
To contextualize the nature of the Revival workshop, I offer the following artifact as a study of the mystical kundalini. It is a study that I needed to edit to integrate my understanding into my body.
This montage helped me conclude that the kundalini (aka the Holy Spirit) is, in fact, the love-energy at work underneath my Holy Erotica Film Studies with a reach far beyond sexuality, but to heal a divided nation, and beyond this, a disembodied world.
EYE GAZE WITH THE CAMERA |
In this exercise, I use the format of a trailer to evoke a sense of adventure and discovery using Dr. Kincaid’s footage, feelings that are characteristic of the kundalini. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy.
THIS IS TO ESTABLISH CONNECTION WITH ALL THE WOUNDS ABOVE ARTICULATED AND INTO THE BELIEVING OF THE IMPOSSIBLE
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This was an effort to convey the feeling of the kundalini without going into any detail about it. This was produced while we were developing this into a documentary series. I felt like I couldn’t take the footage to where they wanted it. It was forced. I had to wait.
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Connection to Content
What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)
Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)
What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)
Connection to Self/Divine
As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)
What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)
What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)
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This was an effort to convey the feeling of the kundalini without going into any detail about it. This was produced while we were developing this into a documentary series. I felt like I couldn’t take the footage to where they wanted it. It was forced. I had to wait.
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Connection to Content
What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)
Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)
What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)
Connection to Self/Divine
As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)
What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)
What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)
EYE GAZE WITH THE CAMERA |
In this exercise, I use the format of a trailer to evoke a sense of adventure and discovery using Dr. Kincaid’s footage, feelings that are characteristic of the kundalini. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy.
THIS IS TO ESTABLISH CONNECTION WITH ALL THE WOUNDS ABOVE ARTICULATED AND INTO THE BELIEVING OF THE IMPOSSIBLE
CURRENT EVENTS
SCIENCE/TECH
EROTIC ART
RELIGION/SPIRITUALITY
SEXUALITYTHE INTERSTISIAL | THE WEB OF STORY
ICONOCLAST |
TRAUMA THERAPIST AND AVN ACTRESS?
This is a conversation with Charna Cassell and her experience being featured on an adult film that won an AVN award. She contextualizes the experience and draws contrast to herself then and who she is now and the nuances of being featured in content. They talk frankly about the experience of producing her teaching content, material Nathanael had to rely on to complete the task.
NOTE: Again, I don’t know how relevant this section will be as it’s supposed to imply an entry-exit point into a web of stories, but this may only exists on the online community.
OUR ENTRY-EXIT POINT INTO A MULTI-VERSE OF STORIESON THE TIGHTROPE OF SEXUALITY AND SPIRITUALITY: THE WEB OF STORYNAME NAME NAME, Yadda-yadda-yadda-yadda NAME NAME NAME, Yadda-yadda-yadda-yadda NAME NAME NAME, Yadda-yadda-yadda-yadda NAME NAME NAME, Yadda-yadda-yadda-yadda NAME NAME NAME, Yadda-yadda-yadda-yadda NAME NAME NAME, Yadda-yadda-yadda-yadda NAME NAME NAME, Yadda-yadda-yadda-yadda NAME NAME NAME, Yadda-yadda-yadda-yadda NAME NAME NAME, Yadda-yadda-yadda-yadda NAME NAME NAME, Yadda-yadda-yadda-yadda NAME NAME NAME, Yadda-yadda-yadda-yadda NAME NAME NAME, Yadda-yadda-yadda-yadda NAME NAME NAME, Yadda-yadda-yadda-yadda NAME NAME NAME, Yadda-yadda-yadda-yadda
This article is how I don’t digest somatic practices until I edit them into a teaching curriculum. Since then, the gnosis of the practices has been in my system. Another testament to the epistemology of somatic artography.
CLOSING SENTIMENTS OF THE MAGAZINE |
SUMMARIZE THE MAIN POINTS OF ALL THE SECTIONS.
NOTE: This is the end of the magazine. This ends with a reflective piece where I am talking to God, who I now see as a child version of me. And so I must learn to parent that character. But by the end of this, I realize that this thing I am parenting is not the child reflection of me — this is A.I. and it is becoming sentient. It wants to know!
THE BODY | THE DOCU-SERIES
NOTE: This is my vision-story board of the narrative arc of this issue-episode.
EPISODE 2: THE SEARCH FOR HEALING
ACT 1: NEW YORK
This is after Cosmic Touch and Nathanael is already her apprentice, and we will catch up to his trip to go with KK to Mexico, and by this time Nathanael already has an allure for shoots. He’s going to learn the origin of Holy Erotica, the stuff that he hadn’t filmed, his kundalini awakening. Like a memory.
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Brooklyn, NY
An AUDIO STUDY of a friend who grew up without a father and under the shame from the church, but remarkably, still finding her power, agency, and autonomy in NAMING HERSELF; a glimpse into a chapter of her ever-evolving journey that continues today.
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Brooklyn, NY
A film study of art and empowerment with a friend who finds her HIGHEST abilities in the invisible power-dynamics of conversing with men in the underbelly of the exotic dance space; a sacred solitary expression which happens to be center stage. It’s a practice of surrender to the unknown as mirrored in her therapeutic paintings with fellow “work wife” Raven; a dance at the edges of addiction and artistry.
ACT 2: TULUM
So Nathanael explains how he learned everything from the footage and this is how people know. But he finds out there is something that he doesn’t know if he can trust so he has to see for himself.
Here is where Nathanael gets the idea that he’s the guy and this is a Naive thing, but of course he wasn’t to be this as all guys do.
In the cave shoot he remembers that he saw a cave and Maria is Kristina, and she is Catholic, and he gets this idea to do the next film as a transmission for everyone to self pleasure and confront what is inside them.
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Tulum, MX
My first official nude shoot with a friend unravels into a profound conversation of embodiment and growing up in conservative Christianity and a mutual calling to be cultural change-agents in a the name of CHRIST through a common wound of spiritual-sexuality.
ACT 3: ARKANSAS
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Oakland, CA
A character study of a friend who grew up in a cult and once was rode free on a “wild horse” reflects on her escape and paradoxically found freedom and healing in SHIBARI, Japanese rope bondage, a sacred and sensual art inspiring her many talents as a fashion designer and performance artist.
THE SOUL | ARTIFACT CURATION
NOTE: This is the end of the narrative arc and the beginning af the art curation.
THE COHE PUBLIC ACCESS | THE OUTER COURT
NOTE: This is my scratch pad to choose which artifacts effectively convey the spine/arc of this issue-episode.
The Feeling of Coming Alive! |
In this exercise, I use the format of a trailer to evoke a sense of adventure and discovery using Dr. Kincaid’s footage, feelings that are characteristic of the kundalini.
I start featuring a yab-yum demonstration featuring Dr. Kincaid and a practitioner. Via interview Dr. Kincaid explains the feeling of coming alive. I then use her interview, her footage, and her arc to convey the adventure in store for anyone when you are reconnected to your body, whether it is through the kundalini, the aliveness of the Holy Spirit, or simply daring to live your Authentic Self one day at a time.
An adventure truly begins! Not just an adventure for you, but members of your soul family, those who can celebrate your Christ-self!
THIS IS A REPRESENTATION OF EMOTION
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This was an effort to convey the feeling of the kundalini without going into any detail about it. This was produced while we were developing this into a documentary series. I felt like I couldn’t take the footage to where they wanted it. It was forced. I had to wait.
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Connection to Content
What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)
Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)
What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)
Connection to Self/Divine
As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)
What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)
What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)
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This was an effort to convey the feeling of the kundalini without going into any detail about it. This was produced while we were developing this into a documentary series. I felt like I couldn’t take the footage to where they wanted it. It was forced. I had to wait.
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Connection to Content
What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)
Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)
What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)
Connection to Self/Divine
As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)
What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)
What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)
Yab-Yum Real-Time Demonstration |
This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy.
THIS IS UNCUT, AND PROBABLY DOES NOT TRANSLATE INTO THE ROOM, WHICH IS WHY THESE ARTIFACTS ARE BETTER VIEWED IN PUBLIC SPACES. FOR NOW, MAKE THIS A STUDY IN YOUR PRIVATE SPACE.
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In the video, I recreate the moment I met my mentor, Dr. Kristina Kincaid, who helped me understand the kundalini by sharing her own journey through footage. She also recorded her journey as an ethnographic video journal.
My apprenticeship with Kristina genuinely guided me as I explored my church roots, erotic art, and my work with her around the world—experiences that would become the foundation of the first issue of Erostocrat.
I intuitively got footage of my perspective of the yab-yum exercise without good reason why. I just had too. This footage was key to convey the flash-forward experience. It’s remarkable that I had this much footage, authentically lived, to depict this experience. It is beyond rare to me. Hence, important.
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Connection to Content
What did I believe about myself and my creative purpose when I first followed my gut and began this journey? (Explore the thoughts and beliefs that guided your initial choices and how they aligned with your vision.)
Where in my body did I feel the pull to create, and how did I know to trust it? (Reflect on the physical sensations—tension, excitement, or flow—that signaled your alignment with this project.)
What inner knowing or spiritual truth was I honoring by depicting this memory of the future? (Examine the connection between your intuition and your deeper calling.)
Connection to Self/Divine
What parts of this story now feel like prophesy fulfilled, and how does that change how I view my creative choices back then? (Consider how the events unfolded and the clarity they bring to your earlier work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How has visiting this memory of the future deepened my understanding of my journey as both creator and subject? (Reflect on how your perspective has evolved and what you see now that you couldn’t before)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts arise as I witness this memory of the future, and how do they relate to my own life or creative instincts? (Reflect on how the concept of a memory of the future challenges or inspires their thinking.)
Where in my body do I feel the energy of this film, and how does it shift as I watch? (Notice physical sensations, such as tension, warmth, or openness, and their emotional impact.)
What part of my own spiritual or intuitive journey resonates with the protagonist’s experience of the transformation? (Connect the story to their own soul’s longing or growth.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
If I imagine myself 8 years from now, how might this film reflect choices I’m being called at make today? (Consider how this narrative might serve as a guide for your future.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How does seeing the protagonist’s journey fulfilled alter my understanding of memory time, and creative potential in my own life? (Reflect on how the film expands on your perception of possibility and purpose.)
Memory of the Future |
The video below serves as an artifact to contextualize kundalini, offering orientation for those who may sense similar experiences buried within themselves. It follows the emergence of the term “erostocrat” over an 8-year journey—a name that found its true meaning when I revisited this footage.
This montage is a literal depiction of my somatic experience with kundalini—a true artifact of esoteric study, felt deeply and personally; a memory of the future brought into the present with this magazine.
THIS IS AN EMOTIONAL DEPICTION OF WHAT THIS FEELS LIKE TO ME. THERE CAN BE A KNOWING OF THE FUTURE. IN THIS CASE, THERE IS, I SAW A VERSION OF ME THAT IS ARTICULTING NOW, WHICH IS WHY I AM SHOWCASING IT.
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In this film study, I edit Dr. Kristina Kincaid’s experience with the kundalini which she self-filmed in a Mayan temple, and how that led her into healing work.
I then edit my story with the kundalini with my own footage which addresses my sexual wound. It’s important to note that the kundalini / Holy Spirit is NOT about sexuality for everyone. It just happens to be the case for me.
Christian Mysticism and religious art was my gateway to understand the kundalini. My apprenticeship was my guide to create Holy Erotica Film Studies as healing containers that can potentially, not always, ignite the kundalini in others.
This video ends showcasing the workshop space that Kristina and I hold together, a weaving of non-western and western spiritual narratives together in the body. It depicts the power of the kundalini as it emotionally feels to me, as the embodied fire of the Holy Spirit, an agent of REVIVAL.
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Connection to Content
What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)
Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)
What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)
Connection to Self/Divine
As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)
What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)
What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)
Kundalini as Holy Spirit |
To contextualize the nature of the Revival workshop, I offer the following artifact as a study of the mystical kundalini. It is a study that I needed to edit to integrate my understanding into my body.
This montage helped me conclude that the kundalini (aka the Holy Spirit) is, in fact, the love-energy at work underneath my Holy Erotica Film Studies with a reach far beyond sexuality, but to heal a divided nation, and beyond this, a disembodied world.
EYE GAZE WITH THE CAMERA |
In this exercise, I use the format of a trailer to evoke a sense of adventure and discovery using Dr. Kincaid’s footage, feelings that are characteristic of the kundalini. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy.
THIS IS TO ESTABLISH CONNECTION WITH ALL THE WOUNDS ABOVE ARTICULATED AND INTO THE BELIEVING OF THE IMPOSSIBLE
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This was an effort to convey the feeling of the kundalini without going into any detail about it. This was produced while we were developing this into a documentary series. I felt like I couldn’t take the footage to where they wanted it. It was forced. I had to wait.
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Connection to Content
What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)
Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)
What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)
Connection to Self/Divine
As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)
What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)
What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)
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This was an effort to convey the feeling of the kundalini without going into any detail about it. This was produced while we were developing this into a documentary series. I felt like I couldn’t take the footage to where they wanted it. It was forced. I had to wait.
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Connection to Content
What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)
Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)
What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)
Connection to Self/Divine
As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)
What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)
What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)
EYE GAZE WITH THE CAMERA |
In this exercise, I use the format of a trailer to evoke a sense of adventure and discovery using Dr. Kincaid’s footage, feelings that are characteristic of the kundalini. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy. This is a raw and uncut demonstration where I show the reaction of orgiastic energy.
THIS IS TO ESTABLISH CONNECTION WITH ALL THE WOUNDS ABOVE ARTICULATED AND INTO THE BELIEVING OF THE IMPOSSIBLE
THE COHE MEMBERSHIP ACCESS | THE HOLY SPACE
The Kiss, Part 2 of 3
Nevada City, CA
The JFOD Art/Photography book featured a box design that inspired the box motif, a unique editing style that deconstructs the Kuleshov effect—the cinematic principle of juxtaposing different images to evoke emotion. Instead of manipulating perception through contrast, I experimented with truth by emphasizing a single moment. Using the same source clip, I selected two different time frames without cuts, allowing the viewer to experience the moment with heightened focus. This technique was first tested on the raw material for Just For One Day and later applied to this piece.
The next time I employed this style resulted to an artifact called Tethered. In this study, I feature myself filming Lily Cade for one of her client videos, an unedited 15 minute moment where I could not pull the camera away or create an edit. I was tethered to the raw carnality, an experience that I did not prefer. It reminded me of traumatic scenarios of being stuck and committed to a moment that became increasingly more uncomfortable. It is shared here in contrast to the next two artifacts.
Erased / Authentic Feminine Connection
Tulum, MX
In contrast to the feminine connection of Just For One Day, Erased features a genuine impromptu erotic connection between women during the fever dream tumultuousness that is Tulum. In this study, I experience a genuine laps of memory as I witness things in the footage that I have no memory of at the time, but preserved in footage. Though it’s an authentic photojournalistic expression of feminine connection, it is also a self-reflection of my self-erasure as a man.
Sacred Selfie: Part 2 of 3 / Cosmic Touch (Masculine)
Los Angeles, CA
The JFOD Art/Photography book featured a box design that inspired the box motif, a unique editing style that deconstructs the Kuleshov effect—the cinematic principle of juxtaposing different images to evoke emotion. Instead of manipulating perception through contrast, I experimented with truth by emphasizing a single moment. Using the same source clip, I selected two different time frames without cuts, allowing the viewer to experience the moment with heightened focus. This technique was first tested on the raw material for Just For One Day and later applied to this piece.
The next time I employed this style resulted to an artifact called Tethered. In this study, I feature myself filming Lily Cade for one of her client videos, an unedited 15 minute moment where I could not pull the camera away or create an edit. I was tethered to the raw carnality, an experience that I did not prefer. It reminded me of traumatic scenarios of being stuck and committed to a moment that became increasingly more uncomfortable. It is shared here in contrast to the next two artifacts.
The Dance: A Study of Marital Expansion
New York, NY
An intimate conversation with a married couple seasoned in their years with work and children talk about a time when they expanded the boundaries of their intimacy to include a woman. Focuses on the wife, I listen to the profound nuances required and the boundaries that are tested for an expanded love like they modeled. Edited reverently and thoughtfully, this artifact is an expansion of my own nervous system and heart and understanding of love.
THE COHE PREMIUM ACCESS | THE HOLY OF HOLIES
Box Motif: Kundalini (Spirit or Psychosis)
Los Angeles, CA
The JFOD Art/Photography book featured a box design that inspired the box motif, a unique editing style that deconstructs the Kuleshov effect—the cinematic principle of juxtaposing different images to evoke emotion. Instead of manipulating perception through contrast, I experimented with truth by emphasizing a single moment. Using the same source clip, I selected two different time frames without cuts, allowing the viewer to experience the moment with heightened focus. This technique was first tested on the raw material for Just For One Day and later applied to this piece.
The next time I employed this style resulted to an artifact called Tethered. In this study, I feature myself filming Lily Cade for one of her client videos, an unedited 15 minute moment where I could not pull the camera away or create an edit. I was tethered to the raw carnality, an experience that I did not prefer. It reminded me of traumatic scenarios of being stuck and committed to a moment that became increasingly more uncomfortable. It is shared here in contrast to the next two artifacts.
Box Motif: Self-Pleasure or Self-Pain
Los Angeles, CA
The JFOD Art/Photography book featured a box design that inspired the box motif, a unique editing style that deconstructs the Kuleshov effect—the cinematic principle of juxtaposing different images to evoke emotion. Instead of manipulating perception through contrast, I experimented with truth by emphasizing a single moment. Using the same source clip, I selected two different time frames without cuts, allowing the viewer to experience the moment with heightened focus. This technique was first tested on the raw material for Just For One Day and later applied to this piece.
The next time I employed this style resulted to an artifact called Tethered. In this study, I feature myself filming Lily Cade for one of her client videos, an unedited 15 minute moment where I could not pull the camera away or create an edit. I was tethered to the raw carnality, an experience that I did not prefer. It reminded me of traumatic scenarios of being stuck and committed to a moment that became increasingly more uncomfortable. It is shared here in contrast to the next two artifacts.
Box Motif: Eye Gaze / Yab-Yum / Sex
Los Angeles, CA
The JFOD Art/Photography book featured a box design that inspired the box motif, a unique editing style that deconstructs the Kuleshov effect—the cinematic principle of juxtaposing different images to evoke emotion. Instead of manipulating perception through contrast, I experimented with truth by emphasizing a single moment. Using the same source clip, I selected two different time frames without cuts, allowing the viewer to experience the moment with heightened focus. This technique was first tested on the raw material for Just For One Day and later applied to this piece.
The next time I employed this style resulted to an artifact called Tethered. In this study, I feature myself filming Lily Cade for one of her client videos, an unedited 15 minute moment where I could not pull the camera away or create an edit. I was tethered to the raw carnality, an experience that I did not prefer. It reminded me of traumatic scenarios of being stuck and committed to a moment that became increasingly more uncomfortable. It is shared here in contrast to the next two artifacts.
ARTIFACTS MOVING BETWEEN CURATIONS (STILL EDITING)
Breast Massage
Los Angeles, CA
This artifact was originally shot as a study of healthy feminine connection in contrast to the pornographic feminine connection featured in Just For One Day. in this study, Lillie Love, a somatic women’s intimacy coach conducts a breast massage which becomes a self-breast massage. A study of our connection between women is cultivation of connection within oneself.
