HOLY EROTICA

FROM THE PULPIT OF SACRED PLEASURE

  • The Gospel of the Body suggests a sacred or transformative understanding of the human body, akin to the profound teachings of the gospel. It implies that the body, in its physicality and sensuality, holds divine or spiritual significance, offering a path to deeper understanding, healing, or connection with the divine.

As a church camp pastor,

SPEAKING FOR ME

was a love

rivalING

filmmaking.

New York, NY | Cosmic Touch screening and lecture at the historic St. John’s of the Village.

OFFERINGS |

OFFERINGS |

My offerings are not only ways I share the transformative power of Holy Erotica—a message of liberation, connection, and sacred self-discovery—but also a means to develop meaningful content for the Erostocrat magazine and to nurture a vibrant Holy Erotica community.

  • Lectures Inspired by Film Studies: Through curated film studies, I uncover profound lessons about the human journey, weaving them into thought-provoking lectures that inspire growth, understanding, and deeper connections. These insights enrich the ongoing narrative of Holy Erotica and invite the community to reflect and share.

  • Kundalini Awakening Workshop: Embark on a journey of spiritual awakening and sensual empowerment with the kundalini, the embodied Holy Spirit. This workshop not only helps participants access their inner energy but also fosters shared experiences that contribute to the collective exploration of spiritual sexuality.

  • Podcast Links: Explore conversations that delve into the esoteric, the erotic, and the everyday. These dialogues are interviews about my work and process. I aspire to do more interviews to share this message and develop audio content not only a source of inspiration but also a platform for community voices to be heard, enriching the larger tapestry of the magazine.

  • Erotic Photography for the Magazine: Step into the sacred space of holy eroticism, where we create stunning, artistic imagery that honors your divine sensuality. These sessions contribute to the visual narrative of Holy Erotica, amplifying its message through beauty, courage, story, and authenticity.

Each of these offerings is an invitation to heal, explore, and embrace the sacred union of the physical and spiritual. They also serve as opportunities to gather and share stories, art, and insights that deepen the message of Holy Erotica and strengthen our growing community.

WORKSHOPS

| Nathanael and Dr. Kincaid at a workshop in NY.

THE EMBODIED HOLY SPIRIT

The HOLY SPIRIT the most mysterious character of the Trinity, is equated to a kundalini awakening, a fierce spiritual-physiological phenomenon articulated in Hinduism as a transformative expression of divine feminine energy.

This workshop is a “Shaktipata” experience. Shaktipat refers to a spiritual practice in Hinduism where a spiritual teacher or guru transmits divine energy to a student, essentially initiating them into a deeper spiritual path by "awakening" their inner power, often described as "Kundalini Shakti" - meaning the "descent of divine grace" in Sanskrit; it's considered an act of grace from the guru to the student. It Christian terms, this event is known as the Pentecost, or the “descent of the Holy Spirit”.

This can inspire people to change politically, religiously, any type of -ly! I believe a global awakening is upon us, happening now, and this offering is one way to articulate and share this phenomenon.

REVIVAL

  • In this film study, I edit Dr. Kristina Kincaid’s experience with the kundalini which she self-filmed in a Mayan temple, and how that led her into healing work.

    I then edit my story with the kundalini with my own footage which addresses my sexual wound. It’s important to note that the kundalini / Holy Spirit is NOT about sexuality for everyone. It just happens to be the case for me.

    Christian Mysticism and religious art was my gateway to understand the kundalini. My apprenticeship was my guide to create Holy Erotica Film Studies as healing containers that can potentially, not always, ignite the kundalini in others.

    This video ends showcasing the workshop space that Kristina and I hold together, a weaving of non-western and western spiritual narratives together in the body. It depicts the power of the kundalini as it emotionally feels to me, as the embodied fire of the Holy Spirit, an agent of REVIVAL.

  • Connection to Content

    • What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)

    • Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)

    • What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)

    Connection to Self/Divine

    • As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)

    • In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)

    • How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)

  • Connecting to Content

    • What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)

    • What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)

    • What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)

    Connecting to Self/Divine

    • What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)

    • As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)

    • How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)

Kundalini as Holy Spirit |

To contextualize the nature of the Revival workshop, I offer the following artifact as a study of the mystical kundalini. It is a study that I needed to edit to integrate my understanding into my body.

This montage helped me conclude that the kundalini (aka the Holy Spirit) is, in fact, the love-energy at work underneath my Holy Erotica Film Studies with a reach far beyond sexuality, but to heal a divided nation, and beyond this, a disembodied world.

LECTURES

FEATURED LECTURE |

THE LILITH TRILOGY

3 FILM STUDIES | 3 CORE BELIEFS | 3 LECTURES

The Holy Erotica film studies gave me 3 important pillars becoming the CORE BELIEFS of the Church of Holy Erotica Community and personally, for my life. This 3-part lecture series uses the films and my experiences as metaphor for an even larger, more essential arc: the ascension of our consciousness during an era of expansion.

  • Just For One Day

    This lecture goes into the indoctrination of religion and the conditioning of mainstream media regarding sexuality.  It is the patriarchal view of toxic masculinity.  From this position, I pursue my first Holy Erotica experiment — a confrontation with two lesbian adult actresses.   This explosive step into erotic filmmaking includes a bombastic encounter with the Ark of the Covenant, and form there Kabbalistic Judaism, where I am first introduced to LILITH.  

    • 1st Belief of Holy Erotica:Sexuality and Spirituality are SYNONYM. 

    • “HOLY”, 1st Definition: Set apart.

    • Healing Arc:Transformation, discovering our child-psychology and what was. 

  • Cosmic Touch

    This lecture is in-part a prequel to Study 1, investigating a spiritual experience known as transreverberation, being ravished by the Holy Spirit, or a Kundalini Awakening.  I investigate Dr. Kristina Kincaid, a former Victoria Secret’s model turned anthropologist, theologian, and healer and her documented account of her own kundalini awakening.  This leads me into Christian Mysticism and the introduction to Isis Initiation and the Mary Magdalene thread.   This matriarchal perspective investigate the feminine in the holy trinity and is paralleled with a second Holy Erotica experiment — an investigation into self-pleasure. 

    • 2nd Principle of Holy Erotica:  If Sexuality and Spirituality are synonym, both EXPAND. 

    • “HOLY”, 2nd Definition: To be pure and elevated.

    • Healing Arc: Trancendence, following the body and emotion.  

  • Magdalene Remembered 

    This lecture is the reconciliation of the masculine and the feminine.  My father dies, and I go to Hawaii and learn about my roots in the Philippines. I go there and discover the story of the barrel man and my granduncle the mayor of Baguio who banned it. I learn about the story of the Aswang and the original story of resistance and how it parallels with Hawaii.  Meanwhile, I investigate my own white-washing in my third Holy Erotica film — a transmission from a spiritual experience that began before all my studies. I discover the nation’s religious-sexual wound and healing distinction — the EROTIC CHRIST.

    • 3rd Principle of Holy Erotica:If both God and Sex expands, Love also EXPANDS. 

    • “HOLY”, 3rd Definition: To make Whole.

    • Healing Arc: Transfiguration, embodiment of both parts (Transmutation of Transformation and Transcendence.)

FEATURED LECTURE |

GOSPEL OF THE BODY

7 TEACHING DISTINCTIONS EXPANDING CHRISTIAN FAITH

  • Christianity as a Bridge between Man and Woman versus Humankind and God!

  • Christianity as Symbolism versus Literal

  • The Body as the Original Church

  • The Trinity: Holy Spirit as Mother and Energy

  • Pleasure as a Path to Enlightenment-Destruction

  • Revival as a Return to the Body

  • Christianity as Cyclical versus Linear

While producing the Holy Erotica film studies, my faith wasn’t compromised as I originally exected, but EXPANDED. This is thoughtfully integrated as 7 teaching distinctions for the Christian mind:

THE christ CODE

“CHRIST” VERSUS CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS

This is the same dharma I teach from The Lilith Trilogy, but abbreviated, without all the stories and short films. It is a presentation of the 3 CORE BELIEFS of Holy Erotica and teaching distinction of the Erotic Christ.  This teaching also serves as the welcoming orientation for the COHE.

INTERVIEWS AND PODCASTS

PHOTOGRAPHY AND STORY | HOLY EROTICA SHOOTS

Producing Holy Erotica shoots—combining photography and storytelling—is a profoundly healing process, both for the subjects who step into their authentic sensuality and for the viewers who experience the art through Erostocrat magazine or the Holy Erotica community. Each image and story becomes a testament to the transformative power of vulnerability, beauty, and truth.

As Erostocrat evolves with each new issue, the opportunity to showcase individuals with compelling stories continues to grow. These narratives not only enrich the magazine but also deepen the shared journey of healing, connection, and empowerment within the Holy Erotica community.

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