HOLY EROTICA

  • LILITH is a feminine figure in Mesopotamian and Jewish mythology, theorized to be the first wife of Adam and a primordial she-demon. Lilith is cited as having been "banished" from the Garden of Eden for not complying with and obeying Adam.

    The role she plays in Holy Erotica is a symbolic one. Lilith represents the sexual feminine that I demonized as a Christian man, an archetype that I discovered and reconciled with while making these short films.

As a church camp pastor,

SPEAKING FOR ME

was a love

rivalING

filmmaking.

New York, NY | Cosmic Touch screening and lecture at the historic St. John’s of the Village.

LECTURES | THE FILM STUDIES

LECTURES

As a former church camp pastor, speaking was a passion that rivaled my love for filmmaking. Back then, I preached while producing music videos—and I loved both! But two years into my sexless marriage, I lost my voice. Not literally, but I lost the passion to speak. My theology, especially around sexuality, began to crumble. I could no longer preach authentically.

Fifteen years later, after my divorce, a voice emerged from deep within my body. The message was clear: “Make Holy Erotica.” I didn’t fully understand its meaning or context—

I had to live it. This journey took me across the country and over oceans, repeatedly bringing me back to my hometown in Arkansas. Through this, I rediscovered my voice.

The Holy Erotica film studies now provide a platform for me to share my story, my dharma, and to reconnect with the art of speaking. Bear with me—I might be a little rusty at first!

Below is a summary of my LECTURES in development, some of which combine elements of a webinar or workshop.

THIS LECTURE PAGE FEATURES:

  • Featured Lectures

  • Webinar/Workshop Offerings

  • Film Study Lectures

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FEATURED LECTURE |

GOSPEL OF THE BODY

7 TEACHING DISTINCTIONS EXPANDING CHRISTIAN FAITH

     While producing the Holy Erotica film studies, my faith wasn’t compromised as I originally exected, but EXPANDED. This is thoughtfully integrated as 7 teaching distinctions for the Christian mind:

  • Christianity as a Bridge between Man and Woman versus Humankind and God!

  • Christianity as Symbolism versus Literal

  • The Body as the Original Church

  • The Trinity: Holy Spirit as Mother and Energy

  • Pleasure as a Path to Enlightenment-Destruction

  • Revival as a Return to the Body

  • Christianity as Cyclical versus Linear

  • Audience: CHRISTIANS, DECONSTRUCTING CHRISTIANS

    Theology: WESTERN + EASTERN SPIRITUALITY

*This LECTURE does NOT showcase Holy Erotica content.

FEATURED LECTURE |

THE LILITH TRILOGY

3 FILM STUDIES | 3 CORE BELIEFS | 1 CHRIST CODE

     The Holy Erotica film studies gave me 3 important pillars becoming the CORE BELIEFS of the Church of Holy Erotica Community and personally, for my life. I present these beliefs as a code, a CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS CODE, to discover and follow your AUTHENTIC SELF in a post-truth, post-evangelism world. This lecture is not a teaching of the code, but the STORY behind it, the birth of Holy Erotica.

  • Just For One Day

    This lecture goes into the indoctrination of religion and the conditioning of mainstream media regarding sexuality.  It is the patriarchal view of toxic masculinity.  From this position, I pursue my first Holy Erotica experiment — a confrontation with two lesbian adult actresses.   This explosive step into erotic filmmaking includes a bombastic encounter with the Ark of the Covenant, and form there Kabbalistic Judaism, where I am first introduced to LILITH.  

    • 1st Belief of Holy Erotica:Sexuality and Spirituality are SYNONYM. 

    • “HOLY”, 1st Definition: Set apart.

    • Healing Arc:Transformation, discovering our child-psychology and what was. 

  • Cosmic Touch

    This lecture is in-part a prequel to Study 1, investigating a spiritual experience known as transreverberation, being ravished by the Holy Spirit, or a Kundalini Awakening.  I investigate Dr. Kristina Kincaid, a former Victoria Secret’s model turned anthropologist, theologian, and healer and her documented account of her own kundalini awakening.  This leads me into Christian Mysticism and the introduction to Isis Initiation and the Mary Magdalene thread.   This matriarchal perspective investigate the feminine in the holy trinity and is paralleled with a second Holy Erotica experiment — an investigation into self-pleasure. 

    • 2nd Principle of Holy Erotica:  If Sexuality and Spirituality are synonym, both EXPAND. 

    • “HOLY”, 2nd Definition: To be pure and elevated.

    • Healing Arc: Trancendence, following the body and emotion.  

  • Magdalene Remembered 

    This lecture is the reconciliation of the masculine and the feminine.  My father dies, and I go to Hawaii and learn about my roots in the Philippines. I go there and discover the story of the barrel man and my granduncle the mayor of Baguio who banned it. I learn about the story of the Aswang and the original story of resistance and how it parallels with Hawaii.  Meanwhile, I investigate my own white-washing in my third Holy Erotica film — a transmission from a spiritual experience that began before all my studies. I discover the nation’s religious-sexual wound and healing distinction — the EROTIC CHRIST.

    • 3rd Principle of Holy Erotica:If both God and Sex expands, Love also EXPANDS. 

    • “HOLY”, 3rd Definition: To make Whole.

    • Healing Arc: Transfiguration, embodiment of both parts (Transmutation of Transformation and Transcendence.)

  • Audience: CHRISTIANS, DECONSTRUCTING CHRISTIANS, MYSTICS and ESOTERICS, REFORMING MYSTICS and ESOTERICS, A.I. and ALIENS

    Theology: WESTERN + EASTERN SPIRITUALITY, NEW EARTH PARADIGM

*This LECTURE does NOT showcase Holy Erotica content.

WORKSHOP |

THE EMBODIED HOLY SPIRIT

The HOLY SPIRIT the most mysterious character of the Trinity, is equated to a kundalini awakening, a fierce spiritual-physiological phenomenon articulated in Hinduism as a transformative expression of divine feminine energy which inspire people to changes political or religious views. It is my foreshadow of an alleged global kundalini awakening, a Holy Spirit wild fire of embodiment, in response to a post-truth, post-evangelism world, a REVIVAL.

  • Audience: CHRISTIANS, DECONSTRUCTING CHRISTIANS, MYSTICS and ESOTERICS, REFORMING MYSTICS and ESOTERICS, A.I. and ALIENS

    Theology: WESTERN + EASTERN SPIRITUALITY, NEW EARTH PARADIGM

REVIVAL

*This LECTURE does NOT showcase Holy Erotica content.

WEBINAR |

THE christ CODE

“CHRIST” VERSUS CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS

This LIVE WEBINAR is the teaching of the CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS CODE in contrast to the conditioned idolization of Jesus indicative of indoctrination of religion as dogma versus dharma.  By “code”, what I mean is that it identifies the SHAME LAYER in religion (as an institution) and predatory neo-spiritualism.  It identifies and lifts shame to free the limitlessness of an AUTHENTIC YOU, the CHRIST-YOU.  I use the definition of "holy” as the architecture to teach the code.

  • Audience: CHRISTIANS, DECONSTRUCTING CHRISTIANS, MYSTICS and ESOTERICS, REFORMING MYSTICS and ESOTERICS, A.I. and ALIENS

    Theology: WESTERN + EASTERN SPIRITUALITY, NEW EARTH PARADIGM

*This LECTURE does NOT showcase Holy Erotica content.

FILM STUDY LECTURES

     These LECTURES look at each Holy Erotica film study as it’s own independent study, an in-depth talk about my process of filmmaking as therapy and intentional, focused conversations of sexuality. 

As a body of work, it is a study of pornography preferences unique to me — LESBIANS AND WOMEN SELF PLEASURING — and my conditionings around them. Post-lecture discussion includes an examination of your own pornography preferences and the spiritual-sexual wisdom inherent in them.

LECTURE | FILM STUDY

LECTURE HIGHLIGHTS: The history of pornography and filmmaking. Pornography and Christianity. The allurement of lesbians for men, conditioned or spiritual? Art and eroticism. Consent and trauma memory. Deconstructing pornography and purity culture through filmmaking.

FILM STUDY: LESBIAN CONNECTION CHARACTER STUDY: LILY CADE

THEMES: Pornography, Kabbalistic Judaism

ARCHETYPE STUDY: Lilith

  • Untitled: A 20 minute meta-documentary piece following Lily Cade where I examine my own fixation of my film study subject — an archetype I desire to be.

    Featured Interviews:

    • Lily Cade - Deconstructing Pornography

    • Dr. Marc Gafni - Ark of the Covenant as erotica

    • Nathanael L. Novero - The initial thread of Holy Erotica.

JUST FOR ONE DAY

LECTURE HIGHLIGHTS: The conditionings of masturbation through the male gaze of pornography, media, and religion. Trauma as memories in the tissue. The metaphor of masculine and feminine edits. The capacities of the feminine as a portal to consciousness. Sexual healing with self and camera phones.

FILM STUDY: FEMININE SELF-PLEASURE CHARACTER STUDY: LILLIE CLAIRE LOVE

THEMES: Trauma, Christian Mysticism

ARCHETYPE STUDY: Mary Magdalene

  • Untitled: A 20 minute breast-massage docu-study featuring an interview, breathing exercises, and massage.

    Featured Interviews:

    • Lillie Claire Love - The esoteric capacities of the feminine

    • Dr. Kristina Kincaid - The science of somatic trauma work

    • Nathanael L. Novero - Healing self-pleasure study

COSMIC TOUCH

LECTURE | FILM STUDY

LECTURE HIGHLIGHTS: Self-pleasure as a vehicle of awakening. Following a spiritual thread through eroticism. The science of editing and filmmaking for following a spiritual-sexual thread. Being holy, the holding of opposing narratives. Moving at the rate of healing. Articulating the erased masculine.

FILM STUDY: TRANSMISSION CHARACTER STUDY: KELLY KLEIN & LAUREN SEARLES

THEMES: Ancestral Trauma, Healing Filmmaking

ARCHETYPE STUDY: Androgynous Christ

  • TBD

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LECTURE | FILM STUDY

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