HOLY EROTICA
EROSTOCRAT | an online magazine
SEXUALITY | SPIRITUALITY | SCIENCE | STORY
THIS IS EROSTOCRAT MAG
THIS IS EROSTOCRAT. AND WE ARE ABOUT MIND BODY SOUL WITH SPIRITUAL-SEXUALITY BECAUSE THIS IS ME. SO THE FOLLOW FILM STUDIES HERE, WILL SHOW YOU HOW THIS CAME ABOUT. ARTIFACT SERIES: EROSTOCRAT.
MIND
THIS IS A DECONSTRUCTION RECONSTRUCTION OF CHRISTIANITY WITH THE PURITY DOC PIECE AND THE GAFNI GOTB INVESTIGATION PIECE. BOTH OF THESE ARE INVESTIGATIVE.
BODY
THIS IS THE KUNDALINI WHICH IS THE EMBODIED HOLY SPIRIT. MY FILM STUDIES HERE ARE THE TAPES OF DR. KINCAID, AND THEN MY INTEGRATION OF THIS INTO HOLY EROTICA.
SOUL
THIS IS THE LILITH TRILOGY WITH LECTURES, AND IT IS THE AHNI PIECE WHICH SHOWS EMBODIMENT AND FRACTALS. THIS IS ME, THAT VIDEO. BUT WHY?
ON THE MAG
I CAN SHOWCASE ONE CHARACTER STUDY, ONE EROTIC STUDY, ONE ART FILM… THIS IS WHAT IS ON THE MAG, AND THIS SITE GAVE AN OVERVIEW. THIS IS AN ENTIRE SEASON, AN ENTIRE YEAR.
TALKS ABOUT THE COMMUNITY WHICH REALLY MAKES THIS RARE AND IT TALKS ABOUT THE PERSONA AND HOW I WILL BE PREACHING, WHICH IS ALSO RARE. and this community is starting by showing my magdalene film first and a campaign to self pleasure for a purpose and this is how we are holding it.
I am using my film studies to convey an idea. that is what is happening. OR, this has to be my process, not exactly everyone else. This is how I have to find myself. But people don’t need to repeat this. Now that I know this, and that I need to give myself this necessary stip (via webpage), I can actually talk to others through a different means.
THIS WEBSITE REVEALS HOW I FOUND MYSELF. THIS IS MY STORY. AND THE WAY I DO IT, I AM REPLICATING HOW OTHERS CAN. IT WILL HELP THEM WITH THEIR PORN.
CHARACTER STUDIES / THEMATIC STUDIES / SELF PORTRAITS / ART STUDIES
CHARACTER STUDIES
-All that I have so far
THEMATIC STUDIES
-Breast Massage
-Yoni Massage
-Feminine Connection
-Deconstructing the Edit
SELF-PORTRAITS
-Blur
-Male Masturbation
-Show Open of me and Laughing at it
-Magazine
ART STUDIES
-Ahni
-Box Studies
-Wade Masturbating
KUNDALINI STUDIES
-Kristina
-eye gaze
-Show cuts
-Gafni deconstructed from my experience
JUST BECAUSE I HAVE THE CLIPS THAT HELP ORIENT ME, AND I CAN DISPLAY, DOESN’T MEAN NI NEED TO SHOW EVERYONE. I JUST NEED TO DISPLAY THEM, AND PUT IT UP, ON MANYVIDS, AND START MY GALLERY ACCOUNT THERE, AND I CAN REFERENCE BECAUSETHEY ARE A REAL EXHIBIT. IT’S REALLY WALKING THROUGH SOMEONE’S PROCESS.
EROSTOCRAT | AN ONLINE MAGAZINE
Erostocrat is a groundbreaking magazine exploring the sacred intersection of sexuality, spirituality, science, and art.
Through provocative essays, evocative film studies, and a vibrant online community to cultivate eroticism in a safe and holy way, it fosters healing, authenticity, and connection by reimagining eroticism as an essential, spiritual, embodied force of aliveness for personal and collective transformation and healing. It articulates and reconciles our divided nation’s sexual wound, beginning with the individual, reconciling their sexual shame—becoming holy! Whole, but set apart.
To make the magazine and its important message of embodiment accessible, there will be two publications of every issue: one featuring erotic art and another without.
NAVIGATE DOWN FOR:
The story of Erostocrat
The Interview
Erostocrat and the Church of Holy Erotica
Spotlight Stories
Artifact: Foxy Lady
Artifact: Tigerlily and Raven
Artifact: Wild Horse
Artifact: MuthaGawdess
Artifact: My First Nude Shoot
Erostocrat: A Kundalini Transmission
EROSTOCRAT
A PUBLICATION FOR MEN
SEXUALITY | SPIRITUALITY | SCIENCE | STORY | EROTIC ART
EROSTOCRAT | THE STORY
When I began following the voice of “Make Holy Erotica,” I had no clear destination. The process evolved into an ethnographic video journal of eroticism, blending three distinct projects: theology examining church roots and media conditioning, somatic work from my tantra apprenticeship, and erotic art producing holy erotica films.
However, completing Magdalene Remembered defined a trilogy that shaped the core beliefs and vision for an online community to explore eroticism safely, and ultimately leading to Erostocrat—a magazine that unites the inner collective while serving as a veil, both separate from and informative to mainstream society, with a focus on embodiment and authentic expression as orientation and solution.
Inspired by the symbolic void left by Hugh Hefner and Billy Graham, I envisioned Erostocrat as a holistic trauma-informed alternative to Playboy, aimed at healing the nation’s sexual trauma with science, story, and spirituality —starting with men—while elevating and contextualizing women and non-binary individuals.
IN ESSENCE, EROSTOCRAT IS A CONTAINER FOR EMBODIED ASCENSION. IN CHRISTIAN MYSTICISM, THIS IS KNOWN AS REVIVAL.
Born from a kundalini awakening—a Holy Spirit encounter—that fused my Western spirituality with Eastern wisdom, Erostocrat is foremost my personal transformative journey, but also an invitation for yours.
Erostocrat is foremost my method of deconstructing trauma and conditioning by deconstructing the medium. You can try it too!
Erostocrat is where I return regularly, like a second home, to reconnect with our original sexual narrative as human beings and revive my authentic self as Nathanael. You are welcome to join.
In a post-truth, post-evangelical era of fierce expansion and isolation, a counterbalance is needed, a shared experience of authentic erotic embodiment rooted in Christ Consciousness. This is why Erostocrat is essential.
Erostocrat is humanity.
THE INTERVIEW |
As a producer-editor, I’ve spent my career listening to interviews—not just footage of someone speaking, but stories, wisdom, and lived experience. Often, I’ve had to cut what felt like the most profound moments to fit the needs of a show I’m hired to produce.
I have returned to the interview format to explore and relearn sexuality. Filming is my way of learning, and editing is integrating it into my body. These studies allow me to share the raw, uncut gems—MOMENTS OF TRUTH AND DEPTH—presented as the heart of the content.
EROSTOCRAT AND THE COHE |
My ethnographic video journal of eroticism serves as the multi-media foundation for Erostocrat’s online publication, bringing raw and intimate content to life. For analog magazine subscribers without access to this digital experience, the Church of Holy Erotica will serve as their official online space to connect and engage.
This content is divided into two dynamic categories, laying the groundwork for future communal contributions: erotic-based content and story-based content.
EROTIC BASED CONTENT
The erotic content of Erostocrat magazine is known as Holy Erotica or Holy Erotica Film Studies. These personal and communal artifacts explore eroticism in its raw, sacred form and require a safe, consensual space for viewing. Both creators and viewers are encouraged to engage through a lens of embodiment and introspective questions. This exclusive content is available to COHE members in The Gallery. For more, see the FILM STUDIES.
SPOTLIGHT CONTENT
This non-erotic content of Erostocrat magazine is featured in all issues and open to the public. For print subscribers, this content is showcased at the common space of the COHE, the Outer Court, where it supports setting a tone of embodied eroticism for the COHE community.
SPOTLIGHT STUDIES |
The Holy Erotica Film Studies are not all blatantly erotic. Most deal with the subject of spiritual-sexuality conversationally or peripherally to illustrate how eroticism interweaves into all parts of life such as family dynamics, religious upbringing, ancestry, biology, spirituality, and MORE. Featured contributors include anthropologists, published therapists, sexologists, trauma therapists, ministers, and my friends.
THE SEX WITCH | An interview investigating purity culture.
Featured Below | Dr. Kristina Kincaid discusses eroticism, Dr. Monica Moultry discusses racism, Dr. Tina Schermer-Sellars discusses erotica, former gospel star Jennifer Knapp discusses Authentic Self
SPOTLIGHT | erostocrat content
Spotlight | Foxy Lady
An AUDIO STUDY of a friend who found her super power in the fringe erotic space, a career choice that was unconventional for her conservative upbringing, until a discover of her true lineage was discovered, that of her mother and her grandmother.
Spotlight | TigerLily and Raven
A film study of a friend finding power, agency, and expression as a pole dancer in New York including conversations of connection, healing, and a profound art therapy in unique method of painting, a practice of surrender, trust, and discovery.
Spotlight | Wild Horse
A film study of a friend who escaped from a cult and paradoxically found freedom and healing in the Japanese art of rope bondage, an art form that inspired her many talents as a performance artist, designer, and content creator.
Spotlight | MuthaGawdess
An AUDIO STUDY of my friend who grew up experiencing shame from the church but discovering power, identity, and autonomy in the finding her own name. It is a glimpse into a chapter of her ever-evolving journey that continues today.
Spotlight | My First Nude Shoot
My first official nude shoot features a friend who also grew up in conservative Christian culture. She shares her life experience and what an embodiment nude photoshoot means to her.
