A compendium FOR MEN
EROSTOCRAT
LIVING STUDY AND MULTI-MEDIUM ANTHOLOGY
+ SANCTUARY OF HOLY EROTICA
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Aristocracy traditionally refers to a ruling class, often marked by wealth, privilege, and sophistication. It can also imply a higher status or excellence in certain fields.
Mysticism is a transformative spiritual practice focused on inner experience, transcendence, and life’s mysteries. However, like an aristocracy, it can be exclusive, accessible only to a select few.
Erostocrat combines the refined qualities of an aristocrat with the spiritual depth of a mystic. Unlike elitist or exclusionary traditions, it is inclusive, distinguished by its integrity and reverence for sexuality as a sacred path to spiritual enlightenment.
NOW THAT THE EDITING OF THE EROTIC STUDIES ARE DONE, THESE ARE NEXT. STORIES I’VE COLLECTED. NOW I REALIZE HOW I RELATE TO EACH OF THESE STORIES WHEREAS I DIDN’T BEFORE. I MENTION THIS BY EACH FILM.
THE EROTIC STUDIES AND THESE WILL BE SHARED WITH LATER ISSUES OF THE MAGAZINE I SUSPECT.
ESE ARE NEXT. THE REASON WHY IS THAT I DIDN’T KNOW HOW THESE WOULD FIT. THEY HAPPENED AND TAUGHT ME THINGS WHILE I WAS FOLLOWING MY FANTASY THREAD. SO SOME OF THESE ARE NOT EDITED YET.
THIS IS THE MAGAZINE.
SO TO INTRODUCE THIS TO YOU, I’LL DO IT THROUGH FILM STUDIES. FIRST THERE IS THE ONE ABOUT MIND/BODY/SOUL. THE POINT TO THIS METHOD IS THAT THE WHOLE THING IS EMBODIED.
NEXT IS THE MIND - PURITY AND THEOLOGY HOLDING PLEASURE (1ST CHARACTER)
NEXT IS THE BODY - KRISTINA KINCAID TAPES / NATE’S KUNDALINI LESSON (2ND CHARACTER)
NEXT IS THE SOUL - LILITH TRILOGY AND AHNI STUDY (3RD CHARACTER)
THE POINT OF SHOWING YOU THESE CLIPS IS THAT THE MESSAGE THAT I CARRY IS OF THE HEART. (PERHAPS THE STORY OF THIS IS THE PILOT AND IT IS THE FIRST ISSUE OF THE MAGAZINE.)
THE FIRST EPISODE IS THE 20 MINUTE EDIT WITHI AN INTRODUCTION OF WHAT HAPPENED. ALL OF THIS IS SUPPORTED BY MY WEBSITE. SO I THINK THAT SHE IS THE HEALING AGENT OF IT ALL, NOT ME, SO I TRY TO MAKE A HEALER OUT OF HER AND THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS. THIS IS THE FIRST ACT. ULTIMATELY, THIS IS HER SWAN SONG.
(BECAUSE THIS REQUIRES SOME EMBODIMENT AND THIS REQUIRES SOME HEAD-KNOWLEDGE, BUT I’M ALL ABOUT AUTHENTICITY AND BEING WELL-MEANING. SO THIS IS MY JAM. SO TELLING THEIR STORY THROUGH ME WILL BE THE MOST TRUSTED.)
THE CAMERA | THE BODY
To contextualize the online magazine, I had to do videos like this to articulate the three pillars of the Erostocrat magazine — the mind, the body, and the soul.
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This is where you read my INTROSPECTION of each artifact. The study summary sets the frame, tells the story, and gives introspection. It uncovers the filmmaker and subject’s journey, exploring relational and cultural dynamics, and highlight embodied experiences while maintaining ethical integrity. The summary also invites the possibility of a Higher Intelligence at play in eroticism.
See the evolution compass below.
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Connection to Content
What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)
Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)
What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)
Connection to Self/Divine
As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)
In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)
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Connecting to Content
What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)
What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)
What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)
Connecting to Self/Divine
What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)
As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)
How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)
NATIONAL WOUND
EVANGELICAL TEASER
GOSPEL OF THE BODY YOUTUBE
MIND|PURITY
THEOLOGY OF PURITY CULTURE
GAFNI OF THE ARK FROM MY COMIC
BODY | KUNDALINI
Nathan’s Video from purity culture wound to Erotic Art
KRISTINA TAPES
SOUL | erotica
OR THE ANHI SAMPLE
LILITH TRILOGY
EROSTOCRAT | an online magazine
SPIRITUALITY | SEXUALITY
SCIENCE | STORY | EROTIC ART
EROSTOCRAT | ONLINE MAGAZINE
Erostocrat is a groundbreaking magazine exploring the sacred intersection of sexuality, spirituality, science, story, and erotic art.
Through provocative essays, evocative film studies, and a vibrant online community to cultivate eroticism in a safe and holy way, it fosters healing, authenticity, and connection by reimagining eroticism as an essential, spiritual, embodied force of aliveness for personal and collective transformation and healing. It articulates and reconciles our divided nation’s sexual wound, beginning with the individual, reconciling their sexual shame—becoming holy! Whole, but set apart.
To make the magazine and its important message of embodiment accessible, there will be two publications of every issue: one featuring erotic art and another without.
NAVIGATE DOWN FOR:
The story of Erostocrat
The Interview
Erostocrat and the Church of Holy Erotica
Spotlight Stories
Artifact: Foxy Lady
Artifact: Tigerlily and Raven
Artifact: Wild Horse
Artifact: MuthaGawdess
Artifact: My First Nude Shoot
Erostocrat: A Kundalini Transmission
EROSTOCRAT
A PUBLICATION FOR MEN
SEXUALITY | SPIRITUALITY | SCIENCE | STORY | EROTIC ART
EROSTOCRAT | THE STORY
When I began following the voice of “Make Holy Erotica,” I had no clear destination. The process evolved into an ethnographic video journal of eroticism, blending three distinct projects: theology examining church roots and media conditioning, somatic work from my tantra apprenticeship, and erotic art producing holy erotica films.
However, completing Magdalene Remembered defined a trilogy that shaped the core beliefs and vision for an online community to explore eroticism safely, and ultimately leading to Erostocrat—a magazine that unites the inner collective while serving as a veil, both separate from and informative to mainstream society, with a focus on embodiment and authentic expression as orientation and solution.
Inspired by the symbolic void left by Hugh Hefner and Billy Graham, I envisioned Erostocrat as a holistic trauma-informed alternative to Playboy, aimed at healing the nation’s sexual trauma with science, story, and spirituality —starting with men—while elevating and contextualizing women and non-binary individuals.
Born from a kundalini awakening—a Holy Spirit encounter—that fused my Western spirituality with Eastern wisdom, Erostocrat is foremost my personal transformative journey, but also an invitation for yours.
Erostocrat is foremost my method of deconstructing trauma and conditioning by deconstructing the medium. You can try it too!
Erostocrat is where I return regularly, like a second home, to reconnect with our original sexual narrative as human beings and revive my authentic self as Nathanael. You are welcome to join.
In a post-truth, post-evangelical era of fierce expansion and isolation, a counterbalance is needed, a shared experience of authentic erotic embodiment rooted in Christ Consciousness. This is why Erostocrat is essential.
Erostocrat is humanity.
IN ESSENCE, EROSTOCRAT IS A CONTAINER FOR EMBODIED ASCENSION. IN CHRISTIAN MYSTICISM, THIS IS KNOWN AS REVIVAL.
THE INTERVIEW |
As a producer-editor, I’ve spent my career listening to interviews—not just footage of someone speaking, but stories, wisdom, and lived experience. Often, I’ve had to cut what felt like the most profound moments to fit the needs of a show I’m hired to produce.
I have returned to the interview format to explore and relearn sexuality. Filming is my way of learning, and editing is integrating it into my body. These studies allow me to share the raw, uncut gems—MOMENTS OF TRUTH AND DEPTH—presented as the heart of the content.
EROSTOCRAT AND THE COHE |
My ethnographic video journal of eroticism serves as the multi-media foundation for Erostocrat’s online publication, bringing raw and intimate content to life. For analog magazine subscribers without access to this digital experience, the Church of Holy Erotica will serve as their official online space to connect and engage.
This content is divided into two dynamic categories, laying the groundwork for future communal contributions: erotic-based content and story-based content.
EROTIC BASED CONTENT
The erotic content of Erostocrat magazine is known as Holy Erotica or Holy Erotica Film Studies. These personal and communal artifacts explore eroticism in its raw, sacred form and require a safe, consensual space for viewing. Both creators and viewers are encouraged to engage through a lens of embodiment and introspective questions. This exclusive content is available to COHE members in The Gallery. For more, see the FILM STUDIES.SPOTLIGHT CONTENT
This non-erotic content of Erostocrat magazine is featured in all issues and open to the public. For print subscribers, this content is showcased at the common space of the COHE, the Outer Court, where it supports setting a tone of embodied eroticism for the COHE community.
RELIGION, SCIENCE, EDUCTATION, SOCIAL ISSUES |
The Holy Erotica film studies are not all blatantly erotic. Most deal with the subject of spiritual-sexuality conversationally or peripherally to illustrate how eroticism interweaves into all parts of life such as family dynamics, religious upbringing, ancestry, biology, spirituality, and MORE. Featured contributors include anthropologists, published therapists, sexologists, trauma therapists, ministers, and my friends.
THE SEX WITCH (Artifact 071919) | An interview with bodyworker and author Jamie Lynn Finch deconstructing the conditionings of purity culture.
Featured Below, Artifacts (1117-12190) | Dr. Kristina Kincaid discusses eros, Dr. Monique Modrey discusses racism, Dr. Tina Schermer-Sellars discusses erotica, former gospel star Jennifer Knapp discusses Authentic Self
erostocrat CONTENT
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Kennewick, WA
An AUDIO STUDY of a friend who teaches dance and counsels women recovering from the exotic spaces and her profound story of ancestry, once a mystery because of her adoption into a conservative and well-to-do family, but a profound discovery of lineage of the erotic reconnecting her to her severed line of her mother, her grandmother, and the “Foxy Lady” of Jimi Hendrix.
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Brooklyn, NY
A film study of art and empowerment with a friend who finds her HIGHEST abilities in the invisible power-dynamics of conversing with men in the underbelly of the exotic dance space; a sacred solitary expression which happens to be center stage. It’s a practice of surrender to the unknown as mirrored in her therapeutic paintings with fellow “work wife” Raven; a dance at the edges of addiction and artistry.
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Oakland, CA
A character study of a friend who grew up in a cult and once was rode free on a “wild horse” reflects on her escape and paradoxically found freedom and healing in SHIBARI, Japanese rope bondage, a sacred and sensual art inspiring her many talents as a fashion designer and performance artist.
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Brooklyn, NY
An AUDIO STUDY of a friend who grew up without a father and under the shame from the church, but remarkably, still finding her power, agency, and autonomy in NAMING HERSELF; a glimpse into a chapter of her ever-evolving journey that continues today.
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Tulum, MX
My first official nude shoot with a friend unravels into a profound conversation of embodiment and growing up in conservative Christianity and a mutual calling to be cultural change-agents in a the name of CHRIST through a common wound of spiritual-sexuality.
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Belgium
An intimate conversation with a married couple deep into the seasons of their relationship with work and children reflect on testing the edges of their marriage by including another woman in their intimacy. A powerful testament of expansion told by the wife and mother re-defining my own understanding of love.
