HOLY EROTICA

  • As a Christian, I understood "holy" to mean "set apart." In the healing community, however, the concept of holiness takes on a different nuance—it signifies the integration of parts, a movement toward wholeness.

    Holy Erotica explores the seemingly opposing realms of the "holy" and the "erotic," which religion and society have long kept separate. By reconciling these divided halves, it bridges the spiritual and the sexual within us, fostering the healing of shame. To live without shame is to embrace wholeness—a way of life that is, by its very nature, set apart.

“HOLY EROTICA IS A PLATFORM THAT IS DESPERATELY NEEDED AND IT’S MARVELOUSLY EXECUTED HERE WITH REVERENCE, RESPECT, AND ARTISTRY.”

DR. TINA SCHEMER-SELLARS | Sex Educator, Therapist, Speaker, Author of

SEX, GOD, AND THE CONSERVATIVE CHURCH

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Welcome to HolyErotica.Org!

This site started as a platform to showcase my Holy Erotica films created to confront my religious-sexual shame through art. But this vision soon grew. Now it’s a framework for a vibrant online community bridging society to higher conscious connection for education, mission, and transformation—a reflection of who I am today and how this work has shaped me.

At the core is the Church of Holy Erotica (COHE), a space on The Mighty Network where the films are experienced fully. The COHE offers screening rooms, discussion forums, and sacred spaces to explore eroticism in a safe and holy way, all while fostering authentic embodiment with your Authentic Self, the primary relationship that really matters.

The COHE also hosts Erostocrat, a limited-release online magazine and docu-series as an educational tool helping others orient and break from cultural, religious, and sexual conditionings of mainstream media. This platform reimagines content consumption by reclaiming spaces once exploited by pornography, filling them with integrity, intention, and authenticity.

In a nutshell, this campaign articulates the marginalized man and his libido, celebrates the Holy Spirit as an embodied energy within, dosey does with A.I., and throws in some aliens for good measure, all while keeping your feet firmly planted on the ground with Christ-Love as center. Hallelujah!

  • Over two decades of editing-producing unscripted series for networks and channels, 7 years of professional youth ministry experience, 5 years of deconstructing ministry with Touch Podcast, 5 years on the early years of Youtube, and 7 years apprenticing and working to contextualize kundalini as a foundation to develop this platform.

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  • In the Beginning

  • The Film Study

    • Art of the Film Study

    • Footage as Artifacts

    • The Film: Standards/Tenets

    • The Study: Embodiment/Instrospection

  • Erostocrat Magazine

  • Community

  • Curation

  • Ethos

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  • This is where you read my INTROSPECTION of each artifact. The study summary sets the frame, tells the story, and gives introspection. It uncovers the filmmaker and subject’s journey, exploring relational and cultural dynamics, and highlight embodied experiences while maintaining ethical integrity. The summary also invites the possibility of a Higher Intelligence at play in eroticism.

    See the evolution compass below.

  • Connection to Content

    • What was my initial understanding or belief about this story or subject, and how did it shape my creative process? (Focus on the thoughts or intellectual connections that inspired the creation.)

    • Where in my body did I feel the most resonance or tension while creating, and how did those sensations guide my choices?(Highlight the physical responses and how they influenced the work.)

    • What spiritual or intuitive truths did I connect with during the creation process, and how did they help me convey the essence of the story? (Reflect on the deeper, unseen forces that aligned with the content.)

    Connection to Self/Divine

    • As I review this now, how has my perspective on the story evolved, and what new insights or feelings does it bring up? (Explore how time and experience have reframed the meaning or significance of the work.)

    • In this moment of creation, how can you feel the subtle guidance or intelligence flowing through you, shaping the narrative, and connecting you to something beyond your individual self? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)

    • How can I take the lessons or growth from this experience and apply them to my future work or life? (End with a focus on integrating the experience into tangible action.)

  • Connecting to Content

    • What thoughts or ideas come tomind as I engage with this story, and how do they connect to my own experiences or beliefs?(Invite the viewer to reflect on intellectual or personal connections.)

    • What sensations arise in mybodywhile engaging with this content, and how do they shift throughout the experience?(Guide the viewer to notice their physical responses to the story.)

    • What deeper truths or spiritual questions does this story awaken, and how do they resonate with my life?(Encourage introspection on the soul-level connection.)

    Connecting to Self/Divine

    • What new perspectives or emotions does this story leave me with, and how might they inspire a shiftin my own life? (Prompt reflection on personal transformation or change.)

    • As you engage with this content, can you sense a higher intelligence or divine presence guiding the story, inviting you to witness a deeper truth beyond the surface? (Explore the possibility of a guidance beyond the subject, beyond the filmmaker, beyond self, and beyond conditionings and trauma.)

    • How can I take what I’ve learned or felt from this experience and put it into practicein my daily life? (Encourage the viewer to translate the experience into actionable steps.)

IN THE BEGINNING | Study of Integration

This video artifact is a study in integration. Over a decade ago, I was CIFGUY, a featured YouTuber, crowdsourcing before “influencer” or “crowdsourcing” were even terms. After five years and a devoted fan base, I disappeared without explanation. Fifteen years later, I returned quietly, sharing a heartfelt update on who I am now.

This video was posted on the eve of a total lunar eclipse. As part of my journey, I traveled to Mexico to learn about Mesoamerican spiritualism. I was riveted by their integration of the a total eclipse. I found myself experiencing one for the first time in my Bible Belt hometown. This video artifact features an eclipse at the end without explanation. To me, this meant a life-chapter of integration had come.

Every video on this site is an artifact with summaries and embodiment questions to plaly with. That’s what this praxis is for. The pleasure praxis!

ARTIFACTS | the story of the study

The curations here trace the life of my Canon 6D—a secondhand camera that captured my first Holy Erotica film and took its final shots as I finished the last. Over an 8-year span, I was pulled between fragmented documentaries, my narrative lost in the process. Rarely appearing in my own footage, I struggled to find my arc. Filming became my escape from the development hell my life had become—until the camera died.

As an editor with over 20 years of experience, I’ve always seen value in raw, unpolished artifacts. I tried revisiting my work as artifacts, and this changed everything. I saw myself—Nathanael, unproduced, unedited. Finally, I can see the story I’m living. Free from the weight of unfinished projects, I began to see not just my story but a bigger picture.

My body of work emerged as a deconstruction of filmmaking itself—a medium reframed to unpack trauma and conditioning, not just for me but universally. When the blinders of trauma and conditioning fell, Through curating these artifacts, I uncovered a guiding thread of wisdom, hidden in arousal. A voice of God. The that has led me for 8 years like a divine voice—an impossible escape made possible.

| My camera, Darrel Canon. Thanks, buddy. Good times.

  • An object made by a human being, in this case footage, observed in a scientific investigation or experiment that is not naturally present but occurs as a result of the preparative or investigative procedure.

THE FILM STUDY |

MY PROCESS

What I’m doing. How I am doing it. Why am I doing it this way. Where do I do it. To what extent am I doing. This is MY PROCESS of the film studies.

WHAT IS A ‘FILM STUDY’?

I grew up in the church, where feminine sexuality was demonized—THE DEVIL! My way of confronting this indoctrinated fear was through film study, a personal hack to get close enough to Her and begin to re-learn. It allowed me to recognize and unpack the effects of religious-sexual trauma.

After 25 years as a professional editor, I had lost my creative spark. To rediscover it, I let arousal guide my camera work and editing process. What I thought was purely a technical exercise turned out to be deeply embodied—I was reconnecting eroticism with the act of worshiping God. This forged new neuroplastic pathways in my brain, and my body followed. Through this experiment, I began to embody in a profound way.

As a man, the practice of beholding feminine eroticism through my camera with reverence reawakened my masculinity. It unlocked a gift, a calling, and my authentic self—a fearless version of me I never thought possible. I could finally experience sex without shame and fully own my masculinity.

In hindsight, I realized that by deconstructing the filmmaking process, I was also deconstructing my trauma. This journey unlocked a gnosis, a deeper connection between my spirit and body. I began seeing and experiencing everything differently—insights I now share through my lectures.

THE FILM

STEP 1: My camera FOLLOWS MY BODY regardless of shame.

STEP 2: WORSHIP behind the camera. LISTEN versus direct.

STEP 3: EDIT following my arousal versus convention.

THE STUDY

STEP 1: COMPARE finished film to my filming experience.

STEP 2: OBSERVE audience reaction.

STEP 3: SUMMARIZE my findings in lectures.

THE FILM | STANDARDS AND TENETS

AROUSAL AS A LIFE AFFIRMING FORCE

THE STUDY | EMBODIMENT

AND INTROSPECTION       

INTRODUCING THE PLEASURE PRAXIS

  • Praxis refers to the active process of applying theory into action. In this context, pleasure praxis emphasizes the intentional practice of engaging with pleasure as a transformative, embodied experience. 

INTEGRATING PLEASURE INTO EVERYDAY LIFE.

SHORT FILMS | 

THE FOUNDATION

The Holy Erotica short films are the FOUNDATION of everything here, inspiring the vision, mission, and core beliefs that shape the online community. They ground the community in values of authenticity, curiosity, and healing—offering a space where members can dismantle cultural and religious shame while embracing their true selves.

Puna, HI | Lauren Searles, Kelly Klien, and N/O filming Magdalene Remembered, the last of a trilogy.

Puna, HI | Public screening of Magdalene Remembered.

COMMUNITY | 

AN ONLINE GATHERING

Holy Erotica artifacts are a deeper, more intimate, and profoundly respectful exploration of eroticism deserving their own dedicated COMMUNITY guided by core beliefs, principles, and agreements, enabling them to engage with others as a continuous practice to discern their authentic selves from the conditionings of cultural shame, religious shame, and trauma.

EROSTOCRAT |

ONLINE MAGAZINE

Erostocrat serves as a veil and gateway between Holy Erotica and the world, inviting a shift in perspective on eroticism, money, spirituality, and our connection to all things. It articulates and addresses the religious-sexual wound that has divided our nation and separated us from our Authnetic Selves.

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GOSPEL OF THE BODY PRESENTS

HOLY EROTICA

FILM STUDIES LIVED BY N / O

HOLY EROTICA is a safe, online space to explore your eroticism in a sacred, affirming way. Through my erotic films, lectures, discussion spaces, and community engagements, I offer guidance and prompts to help you connect with your Authentic Self. These tools and practices are what helped me, as a man and Christian, embrace my own eroticism and deepen my spiritual journey.

This site is part of a multi-platform network, including The Mighty Network and Many Vids, with four core purposes:

  1. To launch a collective EPISTEMOLOGICAL EXPLORATION OF SOMATIC ARTOGRAPHY, merging spiritual and sexual dimensions.

  2. To introduce a LOVE ECONOMY, where creativity, relationships, and well-being are prioritized over profit.

  3. To explore a NEW, CONSCIOUS EROTICA that values ethical, empowering, and authentic expressions of sexuality.

  4. To ignite a REVIVAL that embodies Christ’s love—awakening the heart, healing the body, and transforming how we relate to ourselves and others.

Join this experiment and become part of a transformative movement! Together, we'll co-create a new way of being, loving, and living authentically—this is more than just exploration, it's a revolution of the embodied heart and soul.

Nathanael L. NoverO

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nudity, sexual content, and heretical beliefs

deviating from Western religion, especially Christianity.

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  • Our nation is fractured by a deep religious-sexual wound, a divide mirrored within each of us. By confronting and reconciling these internal divisions, we heal not just ourselves, but our nation as a whole.

  • I am a former church camp purity pastor and docu-series producer/editor, divorced after a 15-year sexless marriage where intimacy triggered my spouse's suicidal tendencies. This experience gave my fundamentalist theology a life-or-death reality. I was an embodiment of shame.

    Ten years ago, while eating chicken adobo at a restaurant in Queens, New York, I had a dramatic encounter with the Holy Spirit. The words that resonated in my body were clear: "Make Holy Erotica." What did this mean? My curiosity revealed that my fear of feminine sexuality had vanished, but the trauma remained. This Voice urged me to confront it. I needed a camera. When I shoot, I am not afraid.

    With my camera, I could engage with feminine sexuality as I had always respected it—curiously, reverently, and with worship. This integration of Sex and Spirit reintroduced me to a Christ larger than the one I had known—one who spoke the same words: "Make Holy Erotica."

    Seven years later, I found myself in the Philippines, reconnecting to my cultural roots. I began to wonder: How did this journey lead me here? Was I following a divine thread? Reversing my path, I uncovered a profound insight: my religious-sexual wound had severed me from my culture, and perhaps this wound was the nation’s root trauma, beginning on Plymouth Rock.

    My journey led me to produce three erotic short films over a 10 year period, collectively offering me a unique Dharma—what I call the Gospel of the Body and the Erotic Christ. This expanded my Christian faith beyond indoctrination, teaching me love across the lines that divide us.

    Erotic filmmaking helped me discover my Authentic Self and embody the Heart of Christ without the constraints of traditional teachings. The alignment between my Heart and Body became my North Star in a post-truth world. This journey led me to a new understanding of Holiness—holding both the "holy" and "unholy" in reconciliation, without judgment, in the Heart of Christ.

    Your embodied Authentic Self and the worlds you reconcile are a literal revival for humanity. It is Christ on Earth. You are invited here to find Embodiment and Alignment through Eroticism—because this is what saves humanity. This is Revival.